Embracing Vulnerability: Where My Work Is Born

My work is rooted in my own ongoing relationship with healing, and my own alchemy process through my lived experiences.

For much of my early adulthood, I moved through life feeling chronically anxious, high masking to hide how I really felt on the inside, and disconnected from my own inner safety. I honestly didn’t even really know what it felt like to be safe, or in connection with my body.

I come from a childhood of high dysfunction, neglect, addiction, and mental illness, leaving me as a child to fend for myself, ultimately creating a deep abandonment wound. Intergenerational trauma being passed down. I learned that isolation, staying quiet, and hiding myself was what my body recognized as “safe.”

Because of this, I struggled in relationships, romantic as well as friendships. I never let anyone in, or too close to me in my friendships, and I unconsciously reenacted the chaotic, reactive relational dynamics of my childhood within my romantic relationships. Seeking control to stay safe, I felt like I had to shape-shift to be loved or accepted. Chasing love and validation in all the wrong places, getting into abusive relationships and pushing away the healthy ones.

My emotions felt overwhelming and often unmanageable, as I carried a quiet heaviness of persistently believing that something must be wrong with me. That I’m unlovable or will never be enough, even though I so desperately wanted things to be different.

At the time, I didn’t yet have the awareness or language to understand what was actually happening inside. I only knew that I felt constantly on edge, anxious, frozen, or depressed most of the time, often turning my pain inward, spiraling into shame and self-blame, stuck in a state of disconnection and chronic dysregulation.

I don’t think I had ever really connected with my body before stepping into my first yoga class. That, along with psychedelics and therapy, became the doorway into a new life of understanding. Bringing with it intentionality, authentic love, self-love, community, mentors, and study.

This is when things started to change.

Over time, through therapy, somatic and nervous-system-based practices, yoga, meditation, community, bodywork, and study, things began to shift. Little by little, I started to understand that my responses were not inherent failures, but adaptations. My nervous system had learned ways of protecting me, and those patterns were still influencing and shaping how I related to myself and the world around me.

That understanding brought grief, so much grief…

 but also relief. And then came responsibility. Oof. It was now in my hands. My life. Not someone else’s.

I had to learn how to transition from being a victim to my life, to becoming not only a survivor, but someone who could maybe even love life. A life that I have the power to create.

This was all building my capacity to, one: trust myself that I could get through hard things. And two: move through the pain and discomfort associated with the unfamiliarity of true safety.

These next steps have been years in the making.

I never became “healed,” but I learned how to relate to my inner world and experiences differently. Not through bypassing, toxic positivity, subscribing to someone else’s “way,” or being addicted to the healing journey, but through understanding what worked for me.

Weaving together all of the experiences and modalities that truly supported me, I learned how to tend to my nervous system with care, recognize when I was under-resourced and what to do next to support my unmet needs, and respond to my inner experience with more gentleness. Which gave me my power back, choice.

This has been a gradual, imperfect, painful, and deeply human process. One shaped by daily practices, choosing again and again not to give up on myself or this life, self-forgiveness, and letting go of the stories. “I should be over it by now,” or “I should be further along on my journey.”

Over time, it has taken form as a commitment to creating a life that feels more honest and in alignment with my values and Authentic Self.

These are glimmers into the spaces where my work was born, and is born again and again, as I continue to evolve and grow as a human being.

I don’t offer healing as a destination, hyperfixation, or a promise. I offer a loving space for you to be heard and witnessed, because receiving that from others changed my own life. I offer tools and presence for people who want to better understand themselves, regulate their nervous systems, and move through life with more steadiness, intentionality, and, more than anything — self-trust. 

To live freely.

I work slowly, with respect for individual timelines, and with the belief that meaningful change happens through safety, repetition, and care.

At the heart of my work is a simple truth: when we learn how to be with ourselves more compassionately, radical self-responsibility becomes possible, and this ownership and healing ripples outward. Into our relationships, our families, and the ways we show up in the world.